Smile4me-4ever...

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
Mother Theresa

About Me...

I hope by now you have a little bit of an idea of who I am. You do if you read much of my Welcome Page. I am an open book and have learned many lessons through the years. I live my life for today. I cherish the good and bad in each day. I get hurt easily at times, because I trust very easily. I do keep my eyes open and have learned along the way the signs of mistrust. I just feel first impressions are judged to harshly. I like to give people a chance before I make up my mind who they are. I have misjudged people myself, I have also been dishonest in my impressions of who I am. I chose to go "honest" so to speak. I share myself honestly and openly. I hope others can do the same.

I was not always this type of person. Ashamed of who I was and where I was in this world. I chose to misguide others, and not be honest. I learned a very big lesson by doing so. I hurt one of the most honest people I have ever met. Someone who was very honest and open. Someone who shared himself and only wanted you to do the same, honestly. Someone who didn't judge easily, someone who cared deeply and someone who didn't deserve to meet me. I never set out to harm anyone. Miserable about my whole life, it was an escape for me. I didn't expect it would ever matter that I wasn't really totally honest. I was just having fun. I've never been more wrong about anything in my life.

What started as innocent fun became something much more. Feelings. I met someone who made me feel alive again. Someone that I longed to be. Happy. I looked forward to talking to him and I looked forward to sharing myself with him. Only, I wasn't totally myself. I was inside, but not the image I had portrayed. Inside, I shared my heart, my desires, my soul. Outside I shared a wish or a dream of who I wished people seen. My self asteem had never been at its lowest. I had lost who I was. I was a wife and a mother and fat ass, as my ex called me, daily. I lost my identity, as many people in life have in many senses. I chose to make that someone else's problems. Not intentinally but that was what happened. I am not trying to make excuses for what I did but I have learned from that mistake and I have since changed my life. I hurt someone very badly and I seen it in his eyes. I see his eyes still to this day and that is what keeps me on the right path. I hope he forgave me, I wish I really knew. I know in my heart, people are brought into your lives for a reason and if the reason I was suppose to meet him, was so I could change my life. I thank God that I found him and I hope he got something from me other then a broken heart. We shared many things, I can only hope he realizes what was honesty and what was not.

David, I will cherish you forever.

I have many sides to me, or at least I think. LOL One of my favorites is my sarcasm.

I am quick with my come backs and tend to make others laugh.

Sometimes I am a bit out there, but I don't feel I have the sarcasm that makes others angry.

Just let me tell ya, my desk looks like shit, is why I find this so funny

and who doesn't think that lil man is cute and worthy of a giggle :-)

Inside me lives a skinny woman crying to get out.

But I can usually shut the bitch up with cookies.

BITCHOLOGY ............

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,

they call me a bitch.

When I stand up for those I love,

they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts

Or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart.

It means I live my life...MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on my toes.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and Speak against it,

I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for Myself

instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.

It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I Truly am

and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.

I am outspoken,opinionated and determined.

I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame,

Try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.

And if that makes me a bitch, so be it.

I embrace the title and am proud to bear it!

So that about sums it up! HAHA! Actually, I think if you asked my friends and family, they wouldn't call me a bitch, but they would tell you that I do indeed have bitch tendancies. After all I am a woman, have you ever met a woman without bitch tendancies? I sure havent! So here's a little more about what makes me, me!

Now to my serious side j/k Most importantly I am very family oriented. My family means the world to me. As you will hear over and over again. I am a very happily married woman. My husband Duane is my Life! I have 2 children. Jason is 16, he is my birth child. Chris is 16, and he is my step son. I love them both very much. I have a very happy life.

I come from a great family, we are all very close. I lost my father last year and still struggle with that loss. He was a part of my everyday life. I miss him terribly.





I love my animals. Right now I have JR, he is my cat. He's so cute and loves to play, not the most loving cat but he's still young. Loves for you to roll up a wrapper or tin foil and throw it, he fetches and brings it back to you. How great is that?

I also have a Dog, Maxie, shes a black lab. She was orignally my sisters dog, but when she went through her divorce and started working my Dad started watching her and she didnt want to leave, nor did Dad want her to go home. So she found a new home at Mom and Dad's. After my Dad passed away, Maxie didnt take it very well. She was home alone cuz Mom works and she hadn't had that for years. So I brought her to my house, where Duane is home everyday with her. She's a good dog who loves to lick, drives me crazy but we love her very much!

I also have fish, but they just swim in the tank and eat when I remember to feed them.*haha*



You will eventually read about my favorite pet of my life and that was Kady. She was my boxer, greatest friend I have ever had. Will be a great story when I get to her page. Stay tuned if your an animal lover. I have always loved animals!

I have a great job I enjoy alot. I started working there April 07. I am the office administrator for a manufactured homes sales office. I also live in a manufactured home. You can call it a trailer, I do after hours but I love it. I just bought it back in November 2005. It's a very nice home, much nicer then my old home. At work, I answer phones and do our listings online. I stay very busy for the most part. The company I work for is just fantastic, the people I work for are like no others. They are motivated, happy, generous people. The encouragement that can be seen in that office is unreal most of the time. My boss, (in pic) is an up beat happy person and is always making you feel good about what you do and notices the little things you do. I can say I am very lucky, cuz most people do not ever see this type of atmosphere at work. I look forward to going to work and when I am there I am happy to be there. Many days, I havent a clue even what time of day it is! My goal is to go into sales. I just came from a company where I did sales, but unfortunately didnt have the proper training I needed to be really good at it. I have learned alot from my job I have now and am very excited to get there. I also have another job, I clean new home models. I work 2 days a month and clean 3 properties.

When I am not working, I am home with my family. We dont have alot of money so we cant take alot of nights out. We spend alot of time together. We belong to Netflix and have movie night several times a week. Gives us time to enjoy one another.

I spend alot of time on the internet, rather I be chatting with friends, playing pogo games, playing in my PaintShop, or just surfin the web. I love the internet! I am a cyber queen! Love it!! You can never be bored on the internet, unless you really want to be. *haha* If you like to play games, www.pogo.com is a great site. I am a premier member, which means you dont have intermissions in your games and you get to play games first when they come out before they become available. If you go there and would like a guest pass, leave me a comment with your pogo screen name and ill send you a guest pass for 3 days of premium membership. Oh boy, pogo should pay me for that boast!

I also have a BEBO Page, its just another site about me. Kinda like a MySpace. I got one of them too but they suck ass. To much BS for me. www.smile4me-4ever.bebo.com if ya wanna check it out. I enjoy it, not as much as freeweb but it was a great start. I also enjoy watching my TV Shows, which include..Big Brother, Grey's Anatomy, The Bachelor, American Idol, Dog the Bounty Hunter, Deadliest Catch, Oh I know there's more but cant think. I have DVR with my satellite and let me tell you what, if you dont have it, you are missing out! I can watch my shows in like 20 minutes, commercial free. My DVR is always taping, I go to bed and watch a nights worth of TV in an hour or so! How great is that??

I also like sports. Love REDWING Hockey! Love Nascar, GO JR! Enjoying football more then I used to. Duane loves college ball. He doesnt miss a U of M Game EVER! I hated it but knew it was a part of him, so I have had him teach me and now that I have learned more I enjoy it too. GO BLUE baby! My kids love basketball, so I do pay attention to the PISTONS and they are doing great this year. DETROIT BASKETBALL! Oh thats just great! I could listen to them say that over and over.

This summer, I have enjoyed the hell out of the pool. I normally am not a girl who spends alot of time out in the sun. I do not like to sweat and I don't like to be hot. So that combo usually lands me indoors. Nice cool summer days are my fave! This year however has been different. Duane and my neighbor watch the pool. So Duane spends alot of time down there and so of course I like to be with him, but my neighbor called me down one night and gave me some shit about me not being down there to swim. So I got my suit on and away I went. LOL Got down there and now they call me flipper, I can't seem to stay away. It is closing soon and I am going to be crushed. I have gotten a sun tan for the first time in my life. I mean a real suntan LOL It's been great fun and I got a whole clan I swim with now. We started water aerobics and we have taken over the pool LMAO! We have fun and great memories were made this summer and great friends too.

As you can see, I really enjoy alot of things. I hope you have learned a little about me and who I am. I have always lived in Michigan and love it. I enjoy other states and hope to see most of them before I die. God willing, someday I will be able to travel a bit more. Got some great places I would love to see! Take care and I will talk to you later! *haha* Smile 4 me and I will Smile 4 you!